Life These Days

Hi everyone! I hope you all have had a great holiday season! I know it's been a while since I've written anything. I have very much missed writing but as the school year started, life got busy. I started my classes at the community college and I've been working hard to stay on top of the homework.

So, an update on life these days...

Little Man has his own classes now too. He is taking a tap dance class and is enrolled in a Classical, Christian homeschool program called Classical Conversations. He is loving it and I can't believe that my first baby is old enough to start school already! He's a tough, independent, little fighter who loves to argue and march to the beat of his own drum so I'm praying that my nerves and skills can handle teaching him.

So, along with all my math homework, every day with the kids, all the classes, exercise time, and the normal housework, there hasn't been a whole lot of time for anything else. I know math is good for my brain but it turns it into mush first! All my thinking power and extra time have been going into it.

The last few months I've been going to bed after midnight and waking up at or before 6:30. In between, I don't sleep well because both boys still wake up at least once or twice at night. I'm exhausted, cranky, over-caffeinated, and plagued by migraines. I'm pretty sure I went a couple weeks without vacuuming somewhere in there.

I haven't been able to do everything and I've been beating myself up over it.

Today I am done.

I've had to struggle through many days and a lot of emotions to finally come to terms with this stage of life. I want to write more but I can't right now. I want to decorate for all the seasons and work on little projects around the house but I can't do that right now either. I've been trying to do it all and I just can't.

I am not giving up on writing or blogging, I'm just giving myself permission to not post if I can't find the time or mental energy. I'm giving myself permission to not decorate anything. If all I can do is wash laundry, make food, love on all my boys, and work on homework, then that's ok.

I do have some new ideas tumbling around in my head and I may have some extra time this week ao maybe I can get a new post up soon!

Lots of love to those of you that are still hanging around here! I am thankful for you!